Thursday, September 18, 2014

A Dizzying Orbit

So much is happening all at once. With three tests this week, and two papers and project due the next, I've been a little stressed out lately. Thankfully, two of the tests are done now, as well as the project, so my to-do list is getting shorter.

But I'm still finding it difficult to pace myself. I'm trying to do well with my school assignments, however, I'm trying not to lose the time when I want to read, or write, or even just to have family time which will be changing a little in two weeks.

My family met our future puppy a week ago. She's a little black lab, but from the looks of her parents she won't stay little for long. It's kind of funny because I'll be at school most of the time, so Mom and my sister will have to do most of the training, and then I can come home and just play around with her. It'll be great having a dog again.

So anyway, it's more difficult this semester to divide my time the way that I would like. I would love to do some writing, but I'm having a hard enough time trying to write an analytical paper about The Epic of Gilgamesh.......

In a week or so, my schedule will slow back down, and maybe then I'll be able to get some creative projects underway, but right now it feels likes I'm walking around with schoolbooks orbiting my head.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

As the Rain Falls

     The storm rolls in, dark and grey. The clouds fill with droplets until they spill downwards onto the Earth. Storms bring fear and apprehension, though strange children actually enjoy the booming drums and light show in the sky. I used to be one of those strange children, watching out my window, feeling the vibrations of thunder through my fragile bones. The sky would flash, and I would look to see if the bolt struck the ground. I wasn't afraid, all I felt was awe.
     Storms invoke a different feeling in me now that I'm older. Not fear, not apprehension... maybe caution. Maybe it's because I've had to drive to school in the middle of a storm to get to my night class. I know the power that develops when electricity, torrents of rain, and a dark sky combine, and I don't want to risk upsetting the balance. 
     But I also know that the power of a storm can be good. The rain washes over dried up fields, and the waters begin to rise. Rain can bring growth... life refreshed. I try to remind myself of this as I begin to plan the next transition in my life, transferring to finish my degree.
     There are many unanswered questions, will I get the aid I need, will my courses transfer, should I live in a dorm or commute? And then there's the even bigger question, where will I go once I graduate? I don't have all of the answers, and I'm trying not to be anxious about the unknown. 
     I know that rain brings growth, even if the storm brings uncertainty. So I'll stand in the rain and watch as it falls, a sign of better things to come.